"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!" Havoc scram out into the vast empty land the sand moving in different directions due to the changing winds. He was sick and tired of always feeling so alone and never having anyone to comfort him, On the outside he had coverind it up by being as idiotic and annoying as he could possibly be... but on the inside...

He felt like he was burning alive.

His insides twisting and ramming into each other he had a hard time explaining to himself why he had felt this way, So he simply ignored it for a as long as his mind would let him but alas that time was coming to a close keeping it all bottled up had caused him to explode.

As his scream came to aa steady close he collapsed slowly to the ground first his knees and than keeling over till he could feel the sand running in between his fingers, each individual grain rubbing against themselves and his hands he grabbed a handfull in his fist and squeezed it closed as much as he could with the contents inside the sand causing slight burns on his palm from the friction.

" Why... Why do I feel this way... I cant take it anymore..." He slammed his fists down at the last few words and proceeded to pull out his pistol, only one shot was availble he pulled it back and in the silence he could hear the bullet slide into place.

"Havoc... what are you doing?"

"Well sir I would appear to be burning files."

" And why are you doing that?"

" Cause he said he hated paperwork!"



The memory flashing into a shade of pure white, Havoc , unknown to most of eastern command had a great relationship with Hughes...At his passing was probably where his container of emotion lid had become loose and emotions started to spill, Christ he had even considered shooting Edward at one point.
Jean Havoc pulled back the trigger and heard a slight click.


~~The explosion echoed throughout the town and debree flew everywhere, The last thing Havoc had remembered was that Riza had sent him to go find Roy and he did...~~


Havoc pulled the gun up to his chest, Opposite his heart and pulled the trigger back, the boom echoed throughout the desert echoing into Havocs ears untill he passed out from blood loss and the shock of just shooting himself his eyes closed slowly and the the sun blinded his view of the world as he looked up and fell backwards into the sand.

~"Havoc what do you think your doing?"~


A Pure white figure said in that same why Hughes had asked him all that time ago.

' Well Sir I appear to be dying in all my loneliness...'

SLAP!

An invisible hand came down and slapped Havoc across the face.

~"What do you think you doing?! You can't die here! I don't think it's time for you to come and join me Jean."~

' What? What do you mean here like this what about you...you just went off and..and got murdered!' Havoc stuttered in his words.

~"No Havoc...." ~

Havoc could feel Hughe's Depression.

~"I didn't just go off and get murdered... I knew I was going to die... Thats why I took that picture of my family with me. I wanted to be with them till the very end..."~

Havoc couldn't speak.

~"So Don't go out like this alright? Come on I'll help you up."~

Havoc reached his hand up into the bright light up above him and right before he had opened his eyes and saw the burning dessert once again he swore he saw Maes in all his glory with burning white fire angel wings the feathers falling all around him.

" Even in death..." Havoc sighed than reached up and put his hand up where he had shot himself the wound had closed but the hole and blood were still there, the sand turned a brownish red color and was clumped together.

He stood up, faltered a bit but caught his ground he looked up at the sun and a black shadow covered the ground suddenly as a white feather came down and landed in the sand in front of him. He snickered a bit and picked it up and placed it in his side pocket, A memory to be kept...A memory..

To be remembered.....